Song for "MI"

This song is specially dedicated to someone whom i am indebted so much...
the lessons learned,
the helping hand,
the generosity of the heart...
and most of all the memories that i will take with me forever
as i walk on my journey past through the metamorphosis of my being....
Thank you "mi" for believing that i can be the "Man" best to "BE".
For showing me different perspectives when i get stuck on my absolutes.
For making me realize that Life and the meaning of things is not stagnant on my own point of view rather it is more wonderful when shared and explored with another soul.
"LG Heindell" for the most of it -- the ultimate fulfillment of the ideal Harold.
Gracias contodo mi corazon. Gracias "deseo de mi corazón".


Goodbye My Lover
by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd been the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I have to live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.




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Objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they Are

i'd been really very busy for the preparation of this celebration ;)

we held the Creative Team Workshop in my place in Adliya and it was participated by our FB Bro. Al for the development of the TI-Bahrain NewsMedia circulation, Bro. Butch for caricatures and our Master Cutter, Bro. John for Quality Control and we even need to wake him up @ daybreak to drive for us when we conclude the night... and i concentrated on the design and printing of the Certificates to be distributed.... we've been working every night from 6PM to 3-4AM and its quite really an energy draning task but worth enriching...

on top of that, i have Bro. John B's TC banner and poster on queue which is also a rush work... www.triskelions.net's development of Subdreamer, Geeklog, VBulletin, Security and statistics scripts, PHP scripts and Flash Templates... and there are some other important emails that needs my immediate reply. i temporarily stopped my readings and blogging is something i cant seem to fit into my schedule lately... i can only blog now because we're done on most of the workshop and we will celebrate tonight at the Delmon Hotel in Manama. last night was the culmination of the workshop which was attended by MDT Bro. Amang, GT Bro Carlo, FB Bro Vic with Sis Sheileth and the kids, Brods Butch, Bench, Jeoeff, Mark Anthony, and John, Sigma's Sis Angie, and FB Bro John B to follow up on the work. the sun is already up at 430AM when we brought Bro. Al to Muharraq and i took my Power Nap at around 5am which only lasted for about an hour and a half..

i called my boss this morning to inform him that i'll be late and i need to go to the bank to arrange some issues which had been troubling me so much eversince i started dealing with them...

what troubles me more are the thoughts that linger in my mind. some ideas and emotions i need to put down into writing and some other concerns that needs immediate solutions and/or ways to circumvent limitations...

What's Your Personality Type?

Trying on the blogthings
i got this result :)

Your #1 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #3 Match: ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

What's Your Personality Type?

Friendster Blogging

updated my Friendster Blog




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wonder why it is easier for me to blog at Friendster...
maybe because of its limitations that i cant seem to do anything else to modify things... and Limitation makes a Man. The apeiron or the unlimited makes him unstable and Fall.
or maybe its simplicity and style...
i dont know... its just that i am able to find old friends there and new friends i can really hold on to... and most, getting back to my old true self is a slow process i am determined to accomplish. some things i lost when i got to know her... my hands, my thoughts, my heart, and some other things when she wants to believe that the totality of my being is something out of the way. the proud egotistic jerk -- that's what she made me. i'm not even angry.
now i'm regaining it back... slowly... and i am free.

I Let Her Go

same blog at Friendster Blogs

“I’d give away my soul Uphold you once again And never let those moments end” I let her go.

It has always been like that. I came in and out of relationships and through the years, there’s only one actuality that persists. I let them go -- never holding on for the sake of the good times, but keeping the memories to haunt – to haunt like specters in the night.
As I reminisce the scenes, I’ve realized that they were not even second rate partners. Superior class and finesse; Beauty, brains, remarkable talents and such characteristics that makes them more than enough for a man of esoteric impulses. They were all special and best in their own ways. They all have their own peculiarities and superlative qualities which I am lucky enough to discover. I found them along the way of my journey just in time they uphold me, to complete me, to inspire me in moments when my becoming is on a very spontaneous course… and I had the pleasure of savoring the experience even if the said ideals are scattered all over.

But why can I hardly hold on? Does my mastered detachment affected the core of my being that I can easily let go of anything, or anybody else who deserves more than being neglected whenever the scent of more fragrant flowers fill the air, or when the excitement of a new challenge agitate the grounds of adventure and existence? These and such questions pervade as I make my walks. There was even a time I refuse to think of things because it pangs to remember that I should have or would have been if such and such.

And so, she goes… And I wasn’t even man enough to stop her. Of what right have I to even think so? I may have my reservations to diminish the twinge but I’d choose to even cry in the rain. Such pride, the ego tripping jerk wouldn’t even tell nor show any sign of lacrimation.

Do caterpillars die when they turn into butterflies?

"The day i died was the day you set me Free"








"I have known many wonders–
I have faith–
I can trust even now for what shall come next!"


Visit my Friendster blog

Where have all the flamingoes gone?

same blog i posted at http://lordstein.blogs.friendster.com/lordstein/

as i look out the window of my transport bus today, i expected to see the usual flamingoes feeding by the shore... but they are not there again just as i was looking for them yesterday. it is the signal of a new weather here in Bahrain. the shore is dry in its low tide and i normally watch the flamingoes on my way to work but today marks that the weather has really changed to another scorching heat and humid air. my 15 minutes walk to my bus point from home would be a very perspiring one. then i can no longer concentrate to think while walking because of the heat and sticky air. Changes. these are all the many changes i have to cope with.

my strange awakening at 2 in the early dawn has striken me again. such disturbance in my sleep is becoming too ordinary and getting back my sleep is such an arduous task. while i cant think of anything else to do, i scanned my old picture files. i even tried to be productive by editing some with the new Adobe Photoshop CS2...

somehow it makes me realize that time has really passed me by and the lines on my face are already showing. sign of old age. being forgetful is another thing. i said, "men can become forgetful when they diet on sex". well i've been behaving good lately. i had a lot of oppurtunies to sleep with any woman but i choose not to simply just because i wanted to make a change. as we gain more age, our perspectives in life becomes more mature and different.

i'm looking forward to settle down with someone very special already. things i never even dreamed of doing in the past. Now i am FREE.